my special gurl turned wrong.

every time i look at my phone i thought of her. every time i did something i did it while thinking of her. while at work or with my group buds or friends or family i only thought of her. that was until her friend got involved in her and my relationship which now cost us being together forever and ever due to a friend putting their nose in her business and my business. that's bullying. lying to a friend about someone. i would've helped her get on to cliquesters.com but now she lost her chance. i'll love her until the day i am gone.

special gurl in my life.

now i know when some people read this they say that's nice talking about ur mom when it's about my amazing gf. she is always there to support me. she is always there to love me. she is always there to make me feel special in so many ways. i sometimes wonder what would've happened if i never met her. of course hiding a lil secret hurt me more than i thought. never told her i was autistic (meaning i only am strong in one subject). my strongest subject before dating was math. it still is but now i have a new subject to be strong in. my gf. i sleep thinking of her and dream about her. when i awake it's like i'm forced to say good-bye and not be happy. yet i always txt her and no one has or will ever stop me. i love her so much than when i dream i dream of us being together being happy at last.

people who are hated by me maybe i start liking again.

thinking of who to hate. lets start with my folks. they say they treat me with respect and that they'll pay for everything and always support me. yet that is what they say but never do. now how about my ex-fiance sam mook. she cried when matt adams forced me to propose to her. i like sam mook still. maybe a lil too much but idk. lets talk about brooke smith. now she i know was hitting on me in eighth grade yet i didn't want to have anything to do with her which i am sorry for because i might have a small crush on her.